I’m gonna be honest, I gave that title all of three seconds of thought. That’s a lie. It was less than that and I feel like you can tell.
So I’m in the middle of a really, excruciatingly deceptive revision right now. Like, a deep bones revision.
You know how you’re watching brain surgery (as one does) and it just looks like this person will never be the same because you’ve flipped their scalp the other way and sawed through their cranium and dug around in the brain – and then you see them afterward and you cannot see the scar? (Shout-out to the docu-series, Brain Hospital. I wanna be you when I grow up.)
Okay, that’s what I feel like but not what I feel like I’m doing. Let’s start over.
This is the book.
Oh my gosh, it’s also the house I wanna DIE in.
Sorry. Anyway, so that’s the book, right? It’s the world, the concept, the scene outline, the characters to some extent. And so, that – that beautiful structure up there – looks relatively the same.
But see, inside – where one keeps all the insulation and world logic and character interaction and motivations?
So, sometimes my brain’s all, no, what are you talking about, this is totally a low-key revision because look.
And I’m like, yeah!
What was I thinking! This is gonna be super chill. I’m so silly. I think I’m just getting all mixed up about this whole driving in the snow and feeling like every mile brings me closer to the moment I go home to be with the Lord and this whole hubby having been sick and fever dreaming, cuz I really haven’t been getting great sleep what with how he’s taken to growling and kicking off the covers so lemme just open this word doc again, I don’t even know what I got so worked up about –
::crying in the wreckage::
So we’re good.
It’s gonna be great.
Super excited. Mildly terrified. Glad we’re doin’ it.
Totally unrelated: isn’t it hilarious when agents/editors/cps make one apt comment and you re-envision (the execution of) the entire novel. I love it.
Next time we’ll talk about writing other projects and how it sometimes teaches you how to properly write the first one. (And we’ll use “the first” rull loosely.)
::puts on hard hat::